love itself

Imperfect but were perfect for me.

When his there I want him nowhere in my sight. When his not there I want him nowhere but my arms. I know ive hurt him and I am so God damn sorry. I know its my fault that’s why im saying sorry. Can I still make it right? do I have a chance to make it right? I don’t know what’s going on your mind but this is what I know…I still love you, I still kept my promise that he’ll stay in my heart no matter what and I also know that I don’t exist in your life no more.Why the hell did I pushed you away? I hurt you but you were the perfect one to love, you were patient, you loved me like no other and you missed me like it’s the last day of your life, you get angry, you lied to me, you made me mad and you broke all my perspective that I wouldn’t do that, but with you..its God damn hard to resist, I did everything which i thought was wrong but feels perfectly right when Im with you. You were so imperfect that you were perfect for me. Will it hurt to have another chance? But I guess not. After all what I’ve done…even myself I wouldn’t give another chance. It would be like giving myself another chance to hurt you again which would be literally more hurtful for me than to you. But thank you. Thank you so much for being in my life. Im not regretting anything because without you, without letting you go, without hurting you then I wouldn’t have learned enough how to love. Thank you. It would have been better if you kept your promise that someday with you I would believe in promises. I was this close in believing promises, but then again as the same as the others, promises are made not because to keep but because to let someone expect and just get hurt in the end. In spite of that..im still keeping the only promise I made to you. JJJ See how complicated love is? That’s why its so God damn hard to fall inlove. Falling inlove is not healthy but the most satisfying medicine you’ll get. keep lovin’! –gaile07’09.

Last words.

Let the pain remain forever in my heart for every throb it brings is one more moment spent with you. Of all the lies and promises you made…by far I LOVE YOU was the best one. You were the best liar I know, though I know it’s a lie, I still believe in them. Was I that in love with you? That’s so profound.

Im falling for someone else. Someone else whose so profound. someone else who’ve I liked from way, way, way back then. Someone whose going to catch me now you’re gone. But I don’t want to fall.

I never want to fall besides to fall from your arms.

But your now in someone else’s arms. Someone else who may have loved you better. Someone else whom you’re happy with. Someone else.

and now, i  have fallen right out from your arms and into him. im fallen for him for im so afraid that i might hurt him just like i hurt you. his to precious to be hurt by me. im never gonna take that risk. no promises. no commitment.

just HIM and ME.

i love _ _ _ ..

—nakx!

KAYA ko pa ba na wala ka?
-emote epek!
pero lisud jud siya infairness.
the good side is im so honest compared last year.
haha..
mahal mo pa ba ako?
damn why did i let you go?
i miss you so much kung alam mo lang. hapit nako mabuang.
every moment. =)
you’re imperfect.
you smoke again, like the last time i first saw you.
your hair is longer than mine, how pathetic is that.
and its like i never existed in your life.
what’s wrong with me?
im not yours and you’re not mine.
now, why in the hell do i care and you don’t?
so angry that im still feeling these.
when i shouldnt be.!

but no matter outrageous these feelings are.
as promised, IKAW parin. =)